Till this day, we are still fondly talking about you, as though you are still around... sometimes i wish that i can just ask the driver not to appear in the estate, or i feel like punching him, tearing him apart..but whatever i do, i cannot bring you back, so what is the point? The only thing is make him guilty.
That day, the plastic bag delivery man asked about you, two bangla ask about u too, and one chinese national... they are all shocked that you pass away. I didnt know blackie and you are so famous, have so many friends around.....the plastic bag delivery man actually asked me whether the driver apologized....initially i tot even he kneel down in front of me, i also cannot forgive him. I will never say Never Mind or forgive to him, because he killed you. But maybe it is better that at least he is guilty rather than he just go away.
That morning, if i had know smthing is amiss that is why u keep running in circles, i would have definitely watch out for you all the time... but because i was afraid of getting scolded and tried to finish my work before gng out to see you. I didnt know that when i finally go out and see you would be in such a state, and that look in your eyes is farewell forever. If i had realized that day the way you look at me is different, i would definitely kept you in my sight all the time. That is my only regret. But because you tried to spend more time welcoming me that morning, the only comfort is that that morning is the best welcome from you i ever had and it is the last welcome you can give it to me. It used to be Blackie and you welcoming me every morning.......but now, Blackie can only do it if Ah-bu is supervising. we dont dare to let her run around anymore. Now there are more lorries and more cars, we closed blackie and fifi up all the time except under strict supervision. Are you running freely now?
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