Is Blackie still missing Marley?

Sometimes we though she forgot, sometimes we think she does......

Today, she made us feel she did not forget Marley....
She barked at the lorry that run over Marley non-stop angrily till the lorry drove off......
after the incident, the lorry did not drive into that area too much...
from her location, she is also not able to see it.
Today, at the staircase she saw the lorry and barked non-stop......
Ah-Bu says maybe she still remembers..... or maybe she only remember hating that vehicle?

whatever .........and it had almost been a yr.
I miss her too.......

*bang*

Jus saw doggiefriend posted some photos of dogs auditioning. They are asked to play dead and can't help remembering how I taught Marley to learn "bang" and she has to lie on her side play dead. I only taught her in one day but she learned it despite refusing to do it properly. She is so smart. Blackie is too cool to put up with us making her do this. I doubt teaching fifi this is easy. Haiz.... I really miss my marley alot, if only I can "bang" you one time and u will peep at me to see will I give u treats!

I miss u alot, can u come to my dreams next time and give me some happy times and not those nightmares tat I have to wake up feeling more heartache? Minh says dreams are opposite of reality, so mayb u are doing fine wherever u r. If this so, heartache so b it, I still hope to see u in my dreams again. I miss u badly...

Nail Cutting

Today We bought Blackie & Fifi for nail cutting. Maybe some owners will feel how come pay ppl to cut for them, but truth is, we are not able to cut them they either put up a fight or struggle/run away. it is v hard to keep them down to cut and we ownselves also struggle fearing to cut too deep and cut their veins.

Blackie likes gng out..... and it is quite rare that she is willing to pose for me......

it is Blackie's third nail-cutting and Fifi's first...the whole nail cutting session only took us 15mins for both of them. The groomer even praise them very obedient, which i thought i heard wrongly.

The last time we went, it took 30mins for Blackie & Marley. Blackie maybe took 5-10 mins, it is Marley, she almost escaped and run out. Whined non-stop.. I almost wanted to go in and help but was stopped.

The first time Marley went nail cutting with Blackie, Marley was whining/yelping/struggling till a crowd was form outside the shop to see what is going on -.-" and i have to hug her to comfort her in the end, the groomer allow me to go in, cuz else they are not able to cut for her. But because Marley doesnt like running, so her veins grow with the nails, thus all the nails are bleeding, cant help feeling her pain, but still have to cut lah.

Now that it is so fast, was not really used to it and too un-eventful i must say, other than Fifi barking back at the dog that was doing grooming before we walk in. On the way back, was missing Marley, memories of going nail cutting flash back. Although I complained her making a scene every time we go nail cutting, I enjoyed it because there are always many situations that caught me unaware, maybe making my life more exciting.

After tat, we went up the hill and tried Blackie's new retractable leash, I'm so afraid that blackie will spoil it lor, i think her strength is more than 25KG but one thing I am sure, so far Blackie always managed to find the way back to the lorry wherever we go. Maybe that is the reason why she has to shit once she get off lorry, to do a marking! Luckily i brought the poo-bag out.

Anyway Fifi grown longer and taller @ length 62cm. 

1 month since you left us

Marley, it had been a month since you left us.......
somehow it felt like you had left very long, either the days are passing too slowly or we are missing you and counting the days slowly.

Today looking at your picture, how i wish i can stroke your head and shake your paw again.
Missing you always!

As the picture frame says it all.....

Although we got a new dog to give Blackie companionship.....deep down we still hope tat accident didnt happened. Fifi is cute in her way......but i think it is different from you. Though they kept comparing her with you but.. You are irreplaceable......just like you and blackie are two different personalities, i guess we cannot expect Fifi to be like you, at most somewhat similar.

Till this day, we are still fondly talking about you, as though you are still around... sometimes i wish that i can just ask the driver not to appear in the estate, or i feel like punching him, tearing him apart..but whatever i do, i cannot bring you back, so what is the point? The only thing is make him guilty.

That day, the plastic bag delivery man asked about you, two bangla ask about u too, and one chinese national... they are all shocked that you pass away. I didnt know blackie and you are so famous, have so many friends around.....the plastic bag delivery man actually asked me whether the driver apologized....initially i tot even he kneel down in front of me, i also cannot forgive him. I will never say Never Mind or forgive to him, because he killed you. But maybe it is better that at least he is guilty rather than he just go away.

That morning, if i had know smthing is amiss that is why u keep running in circles, i would have definitely watch out for you all the time... but because i was afraid of getting scolded and tried to finish my work before gng out to see you. I didnt know that when i finally go out and see you would be in such a state, and that look in your eyes is farewell forever. If i had realized that day the way you look at me is different, i would definitely kept you in my sight all the time. That is my only regret. But because you tried to spend more time welcoming me that morning, the only comfort is that that morning is the best welcome from you i ever had and it is the last welcome you can give it to me. It used to be Blackie and you welcoming me every morning.......but now, Blackie can only do it if Ah-bu is supervising. we dont dare to let her run around anymore. Now there are more lorries and more cars, we closed blackie and fifi up all the time except under strict supervision. Are you running freely now?

Fifi arrived

We had adopted a pup from shelter because it has some resemblance of Marley.
Maybe some ppl will feel we r making use of her by treating her as a sub or wat.. But I think her role is more of distracting us from the pain of losing Marley, including Blackie.

When I heard Blackie is howling in some of the nights, my heart ache because does this mean she is putting a strong front in front of us. Of cuz, she is as hurt as us but if really so, she is too sensible. My Blackie is such a brave girl. Never once whimper when cutting nails, always protecting Marley when she yelps..

I miss u badly, Marley. Never knew I did love you so much.

Sept 2009 Doggies First outing

As they completed their vaccination in Aug, we can officially bring them out with also the license thingy settled. So after doing some research, the nearest place to visit will be Bishan Dog Run

A dog outing became a family outing, before these 2 came into the picture, i doubt we whole family will go out together to just walk a park! haaaaaa we would rather walk shopping centre lor.

And we took lorry with them.....

but Blackie was traumatized by a labrador pub who got too excited and almost violated my girl! Luckily i managed to grab her away as Blackie was too stunned/shy to react.... and game over, no more socializing!

The two sua-ku dun seem to know how to react when too many dogs came along...so in the end we stay out of the dog run and just walk the park then grab a bite at the restaurant there which i think they two preferred it!

athey are really quite excited to go out.....this is the first time for them and for us too! now that they are with us for 4 mths...we are rather able to understand their temperament.
At Home, Marley ruled over Blackie....but outside she is just a follower......haaaaaa and Blackie likes to lead and explore new places..... i think she has some retriever blood.

Aug 2009 - Doggies went clinic, final vaccination, celebrations..

5 months old....

They were brought to clinic for their final vaccination, micro-chip...and also to see if getting paint is ok anot, because our estate at that time is having a new coat of paint and unsurprisingly these two got some paint on them!

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the video was when they just learned paw-paw...for saying thank you, but mostly used for asking food!

August 2009 is month of celebration, as they officially became our dogs as they have their mirco-chip.As 3 colleagues had birthday on that month, we had a celebration....photos of them with the ppl that love them!

They got too excited and cause us to cannot concentrate on our cake-cutting so they were banished back to their home....giving that glum face until after the cake cutting...their Ah-Bu came out to feed them her bday cake. it was their ah-bu birthday month!.

Finally on one of the weekend...they got themselves more paint! they seem quite excited with the coat of paint on them.....but it definitely took us quite alot of work to get the paint off them....

Day14 since u left

这几天带Blackie上完厕所，它都要玩每次和你玩的Catching，它应该很希望你还能和它玩。
我们取代不了你，想找个朋友给它，但又有点自私的怕需要以后心痛多一次。
星期天翻开报纸看到有征询领养，有只狗长的很像你。我们在考虑，因为不知道Blackie怎么想。不知道这样好吗？是救多一条还是在害它。。

想着，有点懊恼当时如果对你严厉一点，苛刻一点点，就不会发生这个悲剧。
我们大家都还会在一起。
你好特别，在我们心中无法取代。
想你的心一直都没闲着。

离开10天

你离开已经10天了，今天不知怎么的，非常想你。
是因为下雨的天气，还是生病的我，还是没事做。
整天你的回忆就一直在脑海里从复着。
早上带Blackie到你们上厕所的地方，想起那天早上我陪你上厕所的情形，那么平常的一天最后却变成我跟你永别的一天。
想着，想着我的泪水也不由自主的流了。
看到前天我问Blackie, "where is Marley? Marley leh?"它慌张的东张西望然后很忧愁的看着启渊，我的心好痛。它也在找你，它也好想你。
你好吗？我真的好想你，以前一旦我在你就会来呆着，真的走了。
现在的你找到天使了吗？

如果沒有你

hey我真的好想你

现在窗外面又开始下着雨

眼睛干干的有想哭的心情

不知道你现在到底在哪里

hey我真的好想你

太多的情绪没适当的表情

最想说的话我应该从何说起

你是否也像我一样在想你

如果没有你

没有过去我不会有伤心

但是有如果还是要爱你

如果没有你

我在哪里又有什么可惜

反正一切来不及

反正没有了自已

hey我真的好想你

不知道你现在到底在哪里

你是否也像我一样在想你

Korkor like this particular version....it had been a week since you are gone, Marley. 

This song describes our feelings.....

It seems to be a long week...

we seems to accept the fact that you are gone already, as we can face it talking about it without crying anymore. 

You will always be remembered my darling girl....

although i wish that i can hug you once more, hold your paw once more, let you lick my hand once more and stroke your belly once more.....

The first weekend

marley, we will be visiting u later to decorate your place.
We have prepared your favorite thing-clothes, collar, food and toy.

Yesterday was our weekly pong pong aka shower session. I managed to catch Blackie unaware so need not playing catching. Last week you volunteered to go first which is such a sweet gesture. I know u dislike it but only like us to stroke u with foam. I love to see your face when we rinse u, u look v wei-qu and my pretty marley doesn't look pretty only when your face is wet. I would wipe your head dry and u will bury your head into my hands. After the sun dries u up, u r always so cute... Ur hair will be shiny, clean, smells so nice... I will only hug you and blackie tighter on Saturdays because you two are cleanest on this day. Marley I know you hate water on you.. But the only regret is I did clean u properly because it's too sudden and lack of stuffs. Marley, see u later.. Missing u as usual

Hello marley

Hellooo... Normally when I said this when I stand at loading bay, you will try to be the first one to run to me and jump up as though giving me a hug, telling me how much u miss me. I wish to do it again... Anyway I managed to sleep till the alarm ring, although I did not see u in my dreams I know I had found some peace, it's good that I can move on. Or maybe it's the plush toy that I bought yesterday, when I entered the shop it was on the table. The color and sitting position all resembled u, I couldn't resist and bought it. Although it cannot move and give me the love like you but at least it give me a form of company, lessen my pain of losing u. Helloooo Marley, have a nice day. I hope u had met new ferns and is playing. I know u can do it because u r a sociable dog and do not whine anymore because this time is u r the one that walk away.

Love u Marley.

HoW have you been, Marley

Marley, mummy only cried twice or thrice but I had seem ah-bu crying, kor kor and robin kor. Even my mama oso teary eyes.mummy has improved right, from crying at every hr.

It's not that mummy is no longer sad, is mummy have to be strong to bring ppl move on.
Today mummy then know how blackie saw the whole thing. We watch the video because the driver came and jie jie talk to him. I know you used to like him because he dotes you all, give u chicken wing.maybe he is someone u trusted that's y u didn't wall away. But mummy can't forgive him because he took away my precious marley. He broke too many hearts. He has to suffer the guilt, if u forgive him it is ok.

Marley, blackie misses u. The way she chased after your tshirt when she sense your scent hurts me. Blackie loves you, u know it. Kor kor and blackie are mending each other heart. But blackie is known as kor kor's dog and u r mine.. So wat shd I do but blackie is doing her best to play ur part, she kissed me this morning. I know she did it on your behalf or she wanted to cheer me up. I know blackie loves me, not lesser than u. Marley, pls do not b jealous because not that all of us wanted to shower blackie with attention but because now she is often alone we can never replace u in her life.. Marley, good night. I still miss u alot..

Marley's first photo and last photo....

This is how you look like when i first saw you....so adorable, so adoring back in may 2009........

this is the last good photo i took of you on tuesday 9th Nov 2010...... you are sit outside the container waiting for me to finish taking photo so that i can play with you......

Thank you everything for all the happy times you gave to me..........Marley, I love you.

Can't bring you back

Marley, I know I can't bring you back anymore.
I only regret why did I always threaten you saying I don't want you when I know you go outside.
It's because I don't want you to get to accident.
But I didn't guess that you will meet with accident within home-ground.

Marley, I don't really mean it when I threaten you, it's because I love to see your worried face when you rush home and sit down refusing to be moved. I love to see you liking my hand to plead with me to apologize. I live to see that after 10mins you will still be at he proving you are my good girl. I love to see it you will lie down and want me to sayang you after the scolding. I love to see you jump up the ramp whenever you see me because you want to reach me faster. I love it when you use your head to nudge my hand to tell me to stroke it. I love the way you pounce at me to hug me every morning even though you scratch me. I love the way you calm down in a scuffle with blackie when I pull your tail. I love the way you look at me when you wanted me to sayang you. I love the way you stay with me when I wash my car. I love the way you run to me whenever I open up my arms. I love the way you would try to kiss me. I really love you alot, I thought we still have many years to come, I cannot accept losing you at so young age. Marley, I NEVER really mean it whenever I say that. I know you know....

Marley, I really love you but please rest in peace. If possible, please visit me in my dreams. I really miss you.

One day since marley left

Marley, mummy decided to stop crying because i don't want to hold you back. Not because I stop missing you. Mummy miss you all the time. Ah bu cried badly, kor kor dropped tears even robin kor kor too, boss can't sleep, nobody can, uncle also teared.

Marley, if you have known that you will break so many hearts would you have woke up and run before you got run over?

Marley, you are a good girl, you held your last breath till ah bu and me run to your side. We saw your reluctance but we know it's too painful, you are too seriously injured. There is no miracle...

Marley, it hurt me to hold your paws for the last time.
I didn't know how warm it is till I last held it.
I miss your hug you give me every morning. I miss seeing your tail wagging vigorously when u see us come. I miss seeing your head pop thru the shutter once it roll up. Marley it hurts me most that I will not see you anymore.
Marley, I know Blackie misses you, we can never replace you.
We can never fight with her, sneak and pounce at her and fight with her for food and toy.

Marley, I hope you will be happy because pls dun feel that we are blaming you. We just love you too much

The first night

Marley, I Just survived the first night with the fact you are gone. The whole scene keep repeating in my mind. My eyes are tired but I just cannot fall asleep, I refuse to believe you are gone. Marley, I miss you badly... Why am I not able to save you this time I thought I always manage to pull you out of difficult situations???

10th nov 2010 - The saddest date to date

Today marks the saddest date to date.
Marley has left us.. Due to an accident.
The worst thing is there is nothing to do to save her.
She will be deeply missed by all of us.
We love you,Marley. We really do.
Marley, pls bless Blackie will be all right.
They said you went to a better place although I always hope the best place is to be with us.
They said you cross the rainbow bridge, should I ask you not to miss us and move on so that you can reincarnate earlier.
They said you should be content because you have us as your owners, although I will never know the answer but I guess if I did treat you 100%, I should have given you at least 90%.

Marley, I love you and miss you.
I can't bear to let you go but I've to.
For Blackie and me, i will try to cheer up and it takes time. For now I've to distract Blackie and keep my mind occupied. Marley, goodbye! We love you

Playing Ball

My Mummy loves me alot...they even come back to play with me on sunday.
Either they are scared that we are bored or.....they are simply too bored!

Anyway of cuz i love them come to let us out to play! And we love chasing and snatching the ball or anything that can move!

This kor kor love us alot!

But of cuz we love to play because we are still puppies 

when Blackie bully me,i will go find mummy and complain, i love mummy to "sayang" me